I have always struggled with patience. I want to have a plan for everything and I want it to happen in my timeline. God apparently doesn’t want that for me lately. With everything that has transpired since Brent started applying for jobs, it has been a waiting game. It hasn’t been a normal waiting game either. We have been given deadlines for everything that have been exceeded at every point. They have been deadlines for hearing back on jobs, deadlines for our house and more.
This week and next I am dealing with trying to be patient yet again. We were suppose to close own our house back in Bozeman on Monday. It is now Wednesday and there is still no set closing date. The buyers bank had an issue with an appraiser that never showed up! They didn’t even start dealing with the situation until Monday. At this point, it is impossible to close by the end of this week. This makes me nervous. I am one to worry about things out of my control.
This is where God comes in and I have to leave myself aside. This is what I should always be doing, but I tend to do it more in situations where I feel as though I need Him more. Come on Jess. You need Him all the time. I am one to go back and forth on giving God my trust. I know I shouldn’t and I know that it is just the sinner in me trying to work things out on my own. That is probably why God is doing this though. Trust in me. That is what He is asking me to do. Give it up to Him. Even though this isn’t happening in my timing, God is working out the details. It will all end up being greater than I can imagine. Maybe there is a house coming on the market in the near future that He wants us to wait for? If we were to close now, then maybe we would be pushing to move on too soon. Maybe he just wants us to hang out where we are for a little longer? Maybe we just don’t have a clue about any of it? Whatever God is doing, I need to trust in him.
Patience Iago, patience.