Motivation where are you?
I have still had no motivation or desire to go on a run. I know I’ve mentioned this before, but I’m that type of runner that needs something to train towards. Even if I know that my marathon training is going to start in 4 months, it still is something that gets me out there to run. I want to and need to keep my fitness up to make my marathon training better and to go farther when training time comes. It is just who I am and I have a hard time getting past that.
In my last post, I talked about how I was on track for starting a training plan for a race that I most likely wouldn’t do. I thought it would be enough to get me going and to keep me going. Just maybe I’d actually run it even though I knew it would be unlikely. I tried to set myself up for success by planning ahead.
Three Weeks Later
Well all, here I am almost three weeks later and I finally went on my first run. The hubby is out of the country and a friend asked me if I’d like to go for a run. Of course I said yes! Let’s face it. If people asked me three times a week or more, I would not say no. I’d make it work. Running with a buddy and chatting the entire way makes it that much more enjoyable. It is actually one of my favorite ways to get to know someone. It is one on one time that brings little distraction and you get a workout in! It is perfect.
Well, a couple days later and I haven’t gone back out. The weather isn’t bad. I could drive down to the river to get out of running hills. I could just go. What is really stopping me besides myself? Nothing. Yet here I sit wondering what is next for my running and I just don’t know. I don’t know how to get over this hump. I don’t know if it is just a season that will go away or what it is. I know five years ago I had a little bump in my running as well and hardly did anything that year. Is that what is just going to happen every five years for me? Or am I just making that an excuse deep down? I don’t know.
I just had to get these thoughts out there. It helps me process. Am I the only runner that has these thoughts or these moments?